Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?

" Behold, Arthur, young Knights. If you so choose, they may someday be yours to lead, just as your father before you."
"I'm to be their commander?!"
"Yes. But with this title comes a sacred responsibility; to protect. To defend. To value their lives above your own. Should they perish in battle, to live your life gloriously, in honor of their memory."
"And what of their free will?"
"It is always fallen to a few to sacrifice for the good of many. The world isn't a perfect place. But, perhaps people like you, Arthur, and me, and them, can make it so."
An excerpt from King Arthur between Arthur and Pelegus ( my spelling of the names may be just a little off!) :)
Kinda like us, huh? Taking charge of Marines brings the same responsibility. I just wish some ppl would take notice that this can also apply to other areas of life. If you are in charge of others, make sure to place them first. :)

Lucky*

:)WHEW!!!! It took me a while, but now it's DONE!! Lol! So you guys can go back and read all the stuff I went back and FINALLY finished or added pictures to! :-)
Well, things here in Iwakuni are going well! :) our squadron is doing better! :) No more trouble... keep your fingers crossed....
I really don't have much to say, just wanted to drop a line since it's not very often that I getta chance! :) And besides, I've been approved so, i will see you all very soon! :) Shhh, it's a secret! :) But it is not a big secret that I am the Luckiest woman on Earth. I have my beautiful Stephanie, who keeps me going every day. She is my pride and joy in life and I am so proud of her. she is the most advanced kid in her kindergarden class! And I am not just a proud mom being biased.... she goes to some first grade classes every day. :) She is a good girl and she will be a great leader some day. Just like my brothers. They are all smart as a whip. And I wish I could be there for all of them. When I go home I am taking a trip to Florida to see my awesome Step-monster and my 3 (5 now!) little brothers. I have been a really bad sister the last so many years. but yet, they still love me and are still willing to talk to me, so maybe there is a chance... :)
I need to get back to work now, but just because I haven't named everyone I know does not mean that all of you are not of equal importance to me. :) I love and miss everybody very much! And I am praying for you.
"The Lord is my Shepard... I shall not want...." ~ 23rd Psalm

Ruth 1:16

Whew! It's been awhile! Sorry about that! I have been really busy with all the work for some inspections that we have coming up! :) So I don't getta lotta time to get one here! Like right now, I will probably hafta re-save this ( I started this the other day. I dunno what date this will show up on my page) and then work on it later. We will see how long it will take. Today is Sunday, 29 January 2006. :) And I am at work! Yea! :) This week is our AMI Inspection. Our CGI Inspection will be here within the next couple of weeks, so please keep our squadron in your prayers. Especially now, with all that has happened lately, I ask for your prayers for everyone. Our squadron is on our way on our road of success, as our CO says, but right now we have ran into a few bumps in that road. :S
Well, I try to put pictures on here with all of my letters. :) I had to go back and update some, so.... :) I hope you guys like them!
I must go to work, so I am gonna post this now! I love you all and will talk to you soon!! Please keep us in your prayers!!!!
p.s. Happy Birthday Chris!!! :) I will be sending your stuff out very soon! :) Work is really busy! :) But I do love you! I didn't forget! :D

Me and Marriage... or Not

Hm. Well, I really dunno where to start with this one. Maybe the best way to start something is with the truth, no? I'm not too sure what to say really, and I'm not really sure how you all will take it either. Sigh*, I guess I need to make a little more sense, huh? Well, you are being warned right now that what you read, you may not understand. Shoot, I dunno if I even understand any of it myself. Sigh* but, this is the way the Lord works. We aren't s'posed to know why He does everything the way that He does. :S So, I apologize now for this not making any sense. :) Lol.
First things first. I'm never getting married. There I said it. I've finally got that out into the open! That has really been haunting me for a while. I can't really explain it too much more than that. Just trust in God and the plans that He has for me. He does everything for a reason and He obviously has a good reason for me. Now, I am not saying this is a permanant thing. But, as of right now, this is it. I have my reasons so please respect my wishes. Don't worry about me being gay either because I'm not. Someone asked me that the other day! Lol! I cracked up! Because I'm not sleeping with anyone (like every one else is) then they think that obviously this means that I am a lesbien! Lol! I just don't wanna date anyone here. I would not be fair to date anyway since I am never getting married. Sigh*, but seriously, this has really been eating at me, actually it's been eating away at me so much that I have been in a little void. Like everything around me is some black hole and I just exist in it. But then, the other night as we were towing jetsfrom the wash rack to the line, it hit me. Like being broadsided by a Mac truck. This light just came on in my dark little world. It was Hope. I'm not sure how to really descibe a feeling to you, but just take that for what it is. It was this strong sense of peace. And there was Serenity in it. I accepted what I couldn't change, I was filled with courage to go and change what I could, and God gave me a little wisdom to know the difference. ;) now, don't bet this will stay this way! :) But now, I know that I need to stop worrying about getting married, or never getting married. I am 20 years old. I have time. And right now, I just don't have the time. It would not be fair to date someone when I couldn't give them the time and attention they deserve. And since I am not sure of marraige at all, it also would not be fair to date someoneand steal their hopes for a future away from them. That would be selfish to take their time and attention when I don't deserve it. :) Sigh*. Now, don't take this as a bad sigh and don't try to gimme a pity party or to talk me outta it! It's not so bad once you get used to the idea! Besides, right now I need to think about gettin promoted, getting my Enlisted to Officer packages done and turned in, and the concentrating on school, OCS, and my future Marines. :) After all, my life is to serve others....

The above picture is one of my own from the first wedding shoot that I did in October 2005. :) The groom is Cpl Rehl and his wife is Keiko.