Girls, are we doomed to failure?!

Ya know, it has always been in my nature to give ppl the benefit of the doubt; give them the chance to prove themselves before judgment. But, once you watch so much crap happen, you eventually just don't trust anyone for any reason and suspect everyone of everything. Now, I'm sure I have confused you all right about now. So, lemme break it all down for you...
I have a friend who is a very honest and kind person. She has a great personality and a thirst for life. And she is the type of person that when she loves somebody, she loves them with all she has. There's no holding back with her. Unlike me; I'm so afraid of being hurt AGAIN, that I push everyone away and lock away the "love" part of my heart. It takes me FOREVER to say I love you. And I won't say it if I don't mean it. That's just the way I am. She loves to date and meet ppl because she is searching for her soulmate. Me, I am just hoping he will find me. And I watch her go thru heartbreak after heartbreak. If my heart broke as much as hers did, I wouldn't be able to put together all the pieces. But, despite all the bad days, she has great ones too. She believes in moving on and enjoying life. Yet, I see everything these guys put her thru. The charm, the "heart felt apologies", the roses & candies... but, did they even mean any of it?! Or was it all sweet talk just to find someone to sleep with? I mean, guys say that "they're different". But, different from whom? So far, they are all the same... you find me one who is truely different, (ha!) and I'll be sure to marry him...

TIRED!!

CGI goes today and tomorrow! And I am tired!! Went to bed at 11 last night and then I woke up at 2:30 this morning! Now I'm exhausted! Can't ya tell?! Lol, well, gotta get back to work! Muah!
~ This me and Cpl Walz (powerline) just chillin in the shop, waitin for launches.

The 212 CHAMP!!

Hello everybody!! Well, here I am again!! Sorry it's been a while! We are CrAzY busy at work!! Whew! It's Saturday and everybody is at work until around 1300! Then we have our Squadron Picnic today!! I really wanna go! But, unfortunately, I have duty today. :-( And I really wanted to go! Sigh* Oh, well. We do what we have to do!
Not to much to tell about here! Japan is starting to warm up! That's the great part! And our squadron Cruise Books are here!! Yea! They turned out really nice!!
So, all in all, things are going well over here! I miss you all and love you all very much!! I hope to talk to you all very soon!
Love from Far Away!
~Jessie

Ruth... my favorite Bible character....

I love this ring! I found it on James Avery @ jamesavery.com yee!!! :-) Isn't it beautiful?! Wanna know what it says?!
"Whither thou goest, I will follow".....

Also, I love the "Lover's Knot". Doncha just love James Avery?! Whew! I could go on all day about the great stuff there!!

Phalaenopsis Orchids, my favorite!

oooooohhhhh...... aren't they pretty?! I LOVE orchids! Even if they don't have a real perfume to them, I still love them. the way they feel, the way they look. The way they keep me company in my room when I am by myself! :-) Lol! Can you tell which picture is mine? Hmm... very mysterious....

Happy Birthday Kevin!

Hey Kev! Just wanted to drop in and say happy birthday! OMGosh! You're a real bonafied teenager now! Ah! The world is coming to an end! Look out for Armaggedon! :-) I'm just playin Kev! have a GREAT bday! I love you, miss you, and hope to see you soon! :-) Muah! ~Sis

E.E. Cumming- I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

I carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

* I wanna dedicate this to my Stephanie. I love her more than I have ever loved another being. And I miss her more than words could say. I want her to know that I love her with every breath I have in me, and I love her more than the air I breathe. :-) Lord, please send your Angels to watch over my little Angel.....keep her safe....

Walking around Iwakuni

Hey there everybody! Well, as you can see, I have made it back to Japan alright! :)A few ppl are left back from deployment, so, we went out for Sushi! At my favorite little restraunt! And here are some picture for y'all to enjoy of our day out!

Leaving Day

Well, today is the day. I'm hoppin a flight to Dallas Fort Worth and then on to Osaka. Then comes the fun hours of trains back to Iwakuni. At least it will be the Shin tho (Shinkansen or Bullet Train). So here's not goodbye, just until we meet again! I am going to miss you all sooo very much! But I will be back soon! Only 10 months left to go! You will all be in my prayers! Just know that I love you very much!
Top to Bottom: Me and my little brother, Kevin (can you tell that I am trying not to cry?!); Me and my Pop, Jimmy; Me and my mommy, Danette; Me and my Stephanie-Bug (isn't she getting so big! Almost as tall as I am!); and if you look REALLY hard, you can see mom and Steph waving out the window of the airport to me (at this point I gave up trying not to cry!!! :'-(

Cook Out at Mamaw and Papaw's!

:-) Pop had a great idea to have a cook out over at grandma and grandpa's so that I could say goodbye to everyone! I miss them all already! But, we had sooo much fun! Uncle Jeff grilled, while mom and mamaw made the other stuff on the stove! :) We all got together and shot the guns! so much fun!! Believe me, I really missed that! We can't shoot anything over in Japan! There isn't any room! :-( Sigh* But, we had fun! I wish I could put the videos on here! I out shoot my brother... ;-) [It's fun to rub it in sometimes!] :) Heehee...
So, here are a few pix! From top to bottom is: Uncle Jeff grillin; mom and mamaw workin the puzzle; Stephy beside the fire after roasting marshmellows; Kev with a few of the guns; Pop, Kev and papaw hangin around talkin! :-)

Spending time at home! :-)

this is just me hanging out at home! playin with Stephanie and Matthew (Justice is at his dad's). And we can't forget the lap dog! :) and my beautiful mother, of course!
from top to bottom: Matthew the Human Garbage Disposal! And boy does he love Oranges! Haha!
Aww! Baby fell asleep! He had a long day! Shadow is tired too, although she just laid around all day. :-) she thought that he must have needed company! :)
There is my beautiful mommy! :) and then there's me! See any resemblance!?

Moultrie, Ga

Just a few shots of where Granma and Grandpa Bickel live! :) There are a few from around their house and some of grandma and grandpa! I don't have the ones of all of us together! I need to get them from Grandma and Grandpa! :-p

Spider Man down I-75

haha!!! Jen was mortified when I put on Justice's Spider man outfit (that Beth gave him) and then plastered my face to the window as we went up I-75!!! :-D I just STARED at the ppl we passed it was sooo funny! Jen thought it was funny when I started to get mad because ppl wouldn't get nosey and look into our window! The nerve! Whatever happened to nosey ppl! Lol! :-)

Aunt Tammy!

Even tho we only got to spend about an hour with aunt tammy before she had to go do a wedding and we had to get on the road, it was still fun!!! :-) We ate breakfast at Denny's and took a bunch of pictures! I wish we had more time to spend with everyone! Grr! Why does time have to go by so quickly when you are seeing family that you haven't seen for years?!?!? Arh!!
But, it was still great to see her and visit while we could!! And we even saw Jared! He is getting soo big! Almost 5?! Wow!

Leaving! :-(

well, it is time to go! :( I'm sooo sad! We have to say good-bye this morning to go and see aunt Tammy before heading up to Georgia to spend the night with Grandma and Grandpa! Happy to getta chance to see everyone, but it is still sad to leave! But, I will be back! I promise!! Just help me count down the days! MUAH! I love you all! I will talk to you soon!