Hebrews 11:1

So many changes in my life right now, I'm not quite sure what to make of it all! Sometimes I feel so bogged down I find it really hard to breathe!!! I'm not one to just jump into things; I usually take my time making big decisions and roll with the punches. For the first time I can think of, I have jumped head first into something really big! And, I am very excited about it! But I am also very scared! Ah! Those two emotions should not be used in the same sentence! Or even the same paragraph! I just don't want to rush life and try to run into my future. I wanna take it one day at a time and be happy with every moment of it. Of course I'm happy, believe me, that's NOT the problem! :) I just want to make sure things work out right this time. Because they sure didn't seem to work out for the best the last time. :( And I think maybe that was my fault. Maybe I pushed to hard! Wanted to much, ya know? All I know is this - that I don't want to ruin things again. I think I've learned in the last couple of months that if something is ment to be, then it will be. And that I need to trust God and the plans he has for my life. It seems like every time I try to take my life and run with it, things just get all jacked up! So I need to just be patient and trust, which is really hard for me! I'm so used to just standing up and taking charge anymore! Its hard to sit back and let someone else take things and run with it. Its like letting my dog drive the car! Seems impossible, right? But if God said it was possible, would you trust Him? Enough to sit in that passenger seat w/o a seatbelt on and a blind fold covering your eyes? Without grabbing the " O no!" bars and sitting quietly with your hands folded in your lap? What's the difference here? Both are blind faith. So what do you do? Climb in beside the family pet? Or put the dog in the backseat and get behind the wheel? Just a little something to think on.
" ...i think too many times a couple tries to skip the stages of friendship and move straight into serious relationship without a good solid foundation....well i hope you're still close with God. I know it must be hard to be close with Him when you're not surrounded by strong Christians like I am, but remember that it's not about circumstances, it's about faith and being faithful to God no matter what or who is around. ANd it's so important to spend good quality time with Him daily and to never stop growing. If you're not growing closer, you're getting farther.....so tell me what is God doing in your life? How is He using you to witness? i think we should be urgent about our witness to nonChristians, urgent and bold. God has called us to live a life worthy of the gospel, no matter what happens..... and i pray that this will be the desire of your heart ..." ~Lynnie Oh Lynnie! You guys have never given up on me! Even through all of the really tough times! You, Annie, and Lizzy Girl have always been there! And even when you can't physically, I know you are in my heart always. even when we have our differences. :( I'm sorry I can't be there all of the time. I wish I could. So much has changed tho. And that makes me sad. And it hurts to the bottom of my soul. :( Because no matter what, we can never go back to those 9 year old little girls riding up to rummage sales on ponies bareback. Oh, how I wish we could...

I want everyone to know that I love and really miss y'all! :) I can't wait to see y'all very soon! For those of y'all who don't know I'll be home in March sometime! But don't nun y'all tell my baby Ima comin home! Its gonna be her bday surprise!!! So keep y'alls traps shut! ;) Lol! But I really do miss all of you! :) And I can't WAIT to see y'all! But I need to get going now! I GOTTA go and try to do my homework!!! :) Hugs Kisses and Cookies~ Your Jessie

p.s.~A dream becomes a goal when action is taken toward its achievement. - Bo Bennett

Cherish your vision and your dreams as they are the children of your soul; the blueprints of your ultimate achievements. -Napoleon Hill

"Take this kiss upon the brow! And, in parting from you now,Thus much let me avow--You are not wrong who deemThat my days have been a dream;Yet if hope has flown awayIn a night, or in a day,In a vision, or in none,Is it therefore the less gone?All that we see or seemIs but a dream within a dream." -Edgar Allan Poe,

Nobody Knows it but Me - Patrck O'Leary

Nobody Knows it But Me

There's a place that I travel,
When I want to roam
And nobody knows it but me.

The roads don't go there,
And the signs stay home
And nobody knows it but me.

It's far, far away and way, way afar,
It's over the moon and the sea,
And wherever you are going,
That's wherever you are
And nobody knows it but me.

-Patrick O'Leary

47

I sure am glad that I am going for a B.S. in Biology! Because ppl who tend to go into sciences are usually chock full of questions! Like for instance, tho this is not quite a science question, per say (Spelling! At least we all know I'm not going to major in English! Thank God! ), it is still a good question to think on, non the less. Question : If a person says that they are sorry, do they really mean it? And how would you know? Because ppl don't usually spit out random things; normally the person has thought about it to themselves at one point or another. So the saying "ppl tend to say things they don't quite mean" must be inaccurate. When ppl get angry or upset (or drunk) they say things that they normally wouldn't say but yet it's something they have thought of. Now the question "is it regret or sorry" comes into play. So which is it? Are they the same thing or different? How can you tell? What seperates the two? Is it even possible to do so? Just wondering... My curiosity gets the best of me sometimes.... and by the way, Curiosity didn't kill the cat - it gave it nine lives :)

Do you know that the number 47 is everywhere in life? In your change, gas prices, on a clock, in part numbers, on license plates, room nubers, etc. But no matter where you go, you can usually see the number at least once a day. Melissa (Cooper as most of you know her as, or Shorty) has a theory that it has to do with a universal conspiracy - but I'll let her tell you about that! :) She tends to explain it better than I do. but, as for myself, I've came to the conclusion (sp?) that the #47 brings good luck with it every time I see it. Now, I only have 2 superstitions in life : 1.) How bad you are growing up, your kids will be 10x worse and 2.) You absolutly CANNOT turn the calender over until it has turned the first day of the next month <- my grandma told me that one! And my mamma told me the first! But, anyway, I usually don't believe in bad or good luck. but everytime I has seen this #, good things have always followed. Now, is that because in my mind I percieve it that way? That I believe that everytime I see this #, good things will follow, so they do? Do I just pick out the good things and kind of ignore the bad? What if I believed that it was bad luck and then everytime I saw it after that, would bad things follow? Or would it still be good luck if sometimes good things followed it and sometimes bad things folowed it? - Haha! Sorry, I know I can go off on my tangents sometimes! :)
Well, I need to get offa here and go back to my room because the wind is picking up outside from what I can hear! Just what I need! To get drenched AND blown away! :) Love you all very much!

My Space

I have a long lost myspace account!! Yea! Add to me to y'alls list! Muah! Ciao!

Cowboy Up!

Talk about bad weather!! The typhoon is on its way in here so they're sayin! It's gettin pretty bad here! Wow! Well, got a few hours of sleep after I went to bed at 6 this morning. Woke up at like 11. Never do sleep very much. :( Arg! And I'm afraid it's gonna rain so I am debating "weather" or not I'm gonna go on a little walk once I leave here! ;) I think I might! A little rain never hurt anybody right?! :) Cowboy up!!
Well, I just wanted to say hey and I love everybody and in case it does get pretty nasty here and the power/communication gets cut off, I love all of you a lot and will call you as soon as I can! :) And to my little Angel-fly.. I love you more than air, and since we cannot live without air, you will always know that I cannot live without you! Love forever, Kisses ~ Jess

Ecclesiastes 7:3 - It's raining outside...

Wow! I had a great night last night! Better than I can remember having in a long time! My buddy and I went on a walk from 1230 am until almost 4 oclock this morning! I love going on walks! It was so much fun! And he's such a great person to talk to! :)
Well, not to much goin on now. We all have a long weekend because of Labor Day. An extended 72. And then we have swing crew tuesday and all hands day crew on wed and thurs. Friday we are having a change of command ceremony (meaning we're getting a new CO - LtCol Cerderholm) Oh joy! Hours of rehersal in the hot sun! I just can't wait!!!!!!! :S
Not too much else to say really. Gonna go and eat with a few of the girls and maybe go out to eat in town again tonight! I know of the best places to eat!! :) I love and miss all of you very much!
To my baby girl ~ I miss you so much! Way up to the stars and back and then to the stars and back again! That's really far, huh?! :) You are my pride and joy in life, my little ray of Sunshine. You be good for Nanna, and Papaw and your moms ok? And go have fun with your daddy! And remember what I said about school! It's not so bad sweety. Don't forget I'm sending you home some books to read! :) I love you Buggy- girl. Your my little buttrtfly and I will always take you with me where ever I go, in my heart and in my thoughs & prayers. Who knows? Maybe if we both pray on our knees every night I'll get home soon to see you. :) I love you baby girl. :)
~ Love forever from a far away place, Jessie

Debate

So I was talking to an old friend from back home the other day right, and we have had this on going debate forever and she brings it back up. The same question as always but for some reason my answer wasn't. She really had me thinking this time. So I proceed to ask other ppl I know and talk to all of the time and get there opinions on the subject. Of course I always get a different answer every time, so I decided I'd post it on here and gouge a reaction out of everyone else. Topic at hand: Ok, So back in high school the two of us read this book right, called the "Birth Order Connection", or something along those lines. And we sat down and discussed what it was that we each had read and what our views on the subject were. Well, me, tho practical on most subjects, when it comes to love and romance I tend to have a very Cinderella, fairy tale view on how it should go. I'm all about a life long partnership and that there is one person made for everyone. She on the other hand, to my dismay but not to my surprise, agreed with the author that there is not one person for everyone but that in life there are in fact many ppl with whom you can marry and live a comfortable life with. Now I'm not saying to marry MANY ppl, no no, just that there are many different ppl with different personalities that you can be compatable with and with any given one you can settle down and live a happy life with. Well this got me thinking. For the first time on the subject, REALLY thinking. Could it be possible that there is more than one person out there that you could marry and be happy with? Or is there the ONE person that you could marry and you'd be perfect for each other, or at least, as near to perfect as you can get? Hmmm... That's a really hard one to answer. I think that I may just have to stick with my fairy tale views on this one. :) Maybe that's why I'm so picky, eh? Oh well, it's always worked for me before. :) The trick is finding that one person... :)
Anyway~ GUESS WHAT!!? I have volunteered at the vet clinic here on base!! I am sooo excited! It will be good for my sanity (lol) and it can give me college credit hours! Yea!! Oh ya, my classes have started up by the way too! :) Biology! Wish me luck!
What else? Oh! My SSgt gets promoted to Gunny tomorrow!! At 0800! Congtats SSgt Askew!! Then he turns around and leaves to his new command on Friday! :( And Gunny Skaggs leaves on like the 16th of September! He's gettin outta the Marine Corps! :( Gosh! Everybody is leaving! I sure do wish that I were leaving :(
Well, Australia was cool, but I'm glad to be back in Japan. Boy, never thought that I'd say that! But I sure was spendin way too much money there! My Bday was fun tho. Sat around with a few old friends and some new ones and played cards all night! :) Good times... :)
ok, I need to get off here and go home. I gotta go back to work tomorrow. :( Sigh. At least I go back to my shop in December. Let's just hope I can talk them into sending me to WTI in September. At least I'll be on actual U.S. soil, who cares if I work the whole time?
Take care and I'll call y'all soon. Kisses~ Jessie
*Ecclesiastes 7:8

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Happy Birthday to the greatest step-monster, Beth < ;) > and to my two bestest friends in the whole world, Anne and Lynne!!! :) I DID NOT forget, my email is just being stupid and won't let me into anything!!!! Arg! (What's up with that crap?!) I do miss all of you and love you very much and will call you AS SOON AS I get back to Iwakuni, ok?! Promise!!
Well, Australia is Great!! I LOVE it here, sooooo much better than in Japan! There are way less people here and there is sooo much land! And so many animals! Magpies!! Haven't seen those since CO. :)
But, I will admit, that I can't wait to get back and sleep in my own room and in my own bed (these beds are so hard!). And I know that the sooner we are back in 'Kuni, the sooner the time will come for me to leave for the STATES!! I wanna go to VMFA (AW)-121 in Miramar, California. 121 is the squadron here with us now. And, if you wonder "why them?", it's because they are not a boat squadron. They will be going to Iraq around March 07 which is right after I get outta here (January 07). :) Yes.... per diem... :)
Lol, anyway. I need to get outta here because I am at work borrowing a computer, on my off time, and since my hotmail account isn't working right, I don't need to take up night crew's work time emailing everyone! I just want you all to know that I miss you all very much and love you more than any of you can imagine. I guess you just realize how much more family and close friends mean when you are so very far away from them and everything you've ever known. Family has always been number one, the absolute most important thing above all else. You just realize it more when they're not there. And even tho life goes on without you back home, and you meet new friends and they become family, you never forget where you came from. You will always refer to where you grew up at as home and the ppl you've always known as family. Ppl will come and go from your life, and you will take good and bad things from them, things you will learn from and want to remember, but they will walk out as quickly and as quietly as they came, leaving footprints on you heart. :) Some of those ppl will stay longer than others, and a few may even hang around for many many years. Just don't ever forget the things most important to you. Don't ever forget where you came from. And never brush aside your family. Because when everyone else ditches you in a time of need, they are the only ones who will stand beside you regardless of the facts.
Well, I feel like this has turned into a little speech, so maybe it's time for me to go now. :) I just hope somebody gets my point, if there even was one. :) But, we all know how I like to go off on tangents. :)
Hugs, Kisses, and Cookies for my kids, Love Forever ~ Jessie

Don't give up on me yet!

Hey Hey! Annie I am sooo glad to hear that you've found a new job and that you are doing really well out there!! :) And its just another place to visit too!! One more place I haven't been! :) You'll hafta get me your address as soon as you can ok?! And don't worry about God's plans for you..... He has great things planned and He will use you because you are willing. :) Matthew 6:33~ Lynnie girl!! I'm happy to hear that you're doing great too! In the end your lack of sleep will really pay off! I believe in my heart of hearts that you will have a HUGE impact on those kids! You make an impact on everyone you meet! Remember, strangers are friends you haven't yet met, ones that God is sending your way!!! So make the most of every moment! And enjoy yourself while you are in New York! There is a lot of great stuff to see there! :) Just stay away from Hooters down on Broadway! Thier service sucks! :) And lots of great pictures so you can send them to me! I'll make lots of copies to send you from Australia! :) ~ Lizzy Girl, I know things are pretty tuff these days! But God will make the best of everything. You know better than all of us that things happen for a reason. Challenges are what make life interesting, overcoming them is what makes life meaningful. Keep your chin up and know that I love you and I'm always here to talk even when it seems like I'm not here anymore at all. :) Emails will be easier kept when I get my computer! After Australia! :) Just remember that in the toughest times, turn to the only One who can help. :) Because trying to live w/o His existance in your life makes life hard, unbearable, and pretty much pointless. Life w/o Christ is meaningless. :) Ecclesiates 3:1 A time and a season for everything...
My precious family..... I love you all sooooo much! And I miss you guys too! I'm making a home movie right now for ya guys! Its not the greatest but they will get better as I make you more! I can't wait to get the package you guys sent me with your home movie in it!!!! :) I should be here to get it before we leave for Australia!! And I'll probably wanna call home so expect a phone call at a really weird hour! Probably a very early hour! Lol! :) Because I know I'm gonna be heartbroken! But life is full of heartbreaks and I know that I will be home in a year and a half to see all of your beautiful faces. And maybe sooner, if I can pull it off. :) It's ok to miss someone, its only bad to dwell on it. Share my loves and kisses with everyone!
Well, I need to go now and get some stuff done before we go to Australia. Today's Saturday and we're working so I'd better make the most of it! :) I will email and call everyone soon! I know it takes me a while but don't give up on me yet! I'm not hopeless!! :) Love you all! In Him~ Jess

Buenos Dias! Konichiwa! Aloha! Hello! haha, and I'm sure there are a zillion other ways to say hello! Just droppin in to say hey to everyone! Miss you all! What else was there? Oh ya, GOING TO AUSTALIA NEXT WEEK! Haha! :) So excited! Gonna play with the Wallabies, swim with the crocs, go sight seeing, go 2 the beach, go snorkling, etc. :) And check out the snakes... Australia has like 9 of the 10 most deadliest snakes in the world! Also gonna be workin a lot I'm sure! It'll be alright because we're working a lot here trying to get things together and ready to go! Speaking of which! Gotta go now! Later!

Goin 2 Australia!

Great news everybody!! We (Vmfa-212) are about to head our way down to Australia in the next few weeks! How exciting will that be!!! :) I'll take lots of pictures for you all ok?!:) And I WILL learn how to post them on here! :) Lol!
The bad news is tho, that my b/f won't be able to go with us! Because he is due to leave before we come back to Iwakuni, he has to stay behind. :( That Sucks! :(
But on a better note.... hmmm... things are going alright here for the time being! Can't wait to take a little vacation from Iwakuni tho!
Well, need to get off here and get to sleep... mando fun day tomorrow!! :s
Love you all very much! Hope to talk to you soon! Miss you! ~Jess

Rascal Flatts - Bless the Broken Road

Well, here we go! Time to get this thing updated! Even tho it IS one am! Lol! It's ok tho cuz I getta have the day off tomorrow! :) Sleep, sleep, sleep! And girls night out! It's one of my girl's bday so we're surprising her by taking her out Kareoke-ing! (Wow, i sure jacked that spelling up! Oh, well! My "Give a Damn's Busted!"- Jo Deanne McCeena) It will be a BLAST!! Haha! She's gonna be 27! That's why we call her Grandma! Lol! Anyway.... well, to update everyone, as of this past Monday (13 June) I have been fapped outta my shop to be the Vmfa-212 Expeditor until Christmas! It means I'll getta order all of the parts that we put into the jet, but not just for my shop; for all of them. So, it will be an interesting and learning experience. And when we go on our Squadron det to Australia July-August, I will get to go back and work in my shop! So that will be great! :) Australia will be sooo much fun! I will take a zillion pictures! And buy everyone something! And play with Walabees! But the part that makes it sad is that my baby won't be able to go with us. Because he is scheduled to leave here to go to another squadron the week we are sceduled to get back, they won't let him go because they don't want to risk him missing his flight out of here and messing up his orders. :( *sigh*.............what else? Well, there's not much else to tell.... I've finally gotten a digital camera! So I will try to figure out how to get pix on here! :) Then I will go thru and put a pix with every entry! :)
Well, I do love you all but I need to go! This hurts my poor eyeballs!! :)
2 my little Angel~ Baby girl, I miss you more than you could know, and I love you more than air. Ppl can't live w/o air and I can't live without you! Be a good girl for me! And don't worry, you'll be 6 soon, and I'll be home soon after that! And take care of Bubby and your new little brother, Matt! Big sisters have big responsibility! :)
Love forever from Far Away~ Jessie
*1 Cor. 13:4*

Quick and Painless

Hey there! Konichiwa! Well, this will be really short I just wanted to stop in and say hey cuz I know that it's been a while! Well, there have been lots of changes here! MAN!! Lots of them! But, I don't have a lot of time at the moment to go into them! But, I will be able to get an update on Thursday when I getta break from duty! So, I'll fill you all in then ok!?! I love you all! Miss you! ~ In Him, Jess
*Micah 7:7

Home is Where the Heart is

Well Hellloooo!! Konichiwa! It's been a while, huh?! My apologies! I get busy, what can I say? ;) Lol, so how is the States!! You all need to start posting on here and letting me know!! You all know how it is here! And I'm getting a digital camera on Wednesday so I can start posting pix on here for ya!! And you all better do the same!! Annie from COLORADO!!!! Lynnie from Indiana, Michigan, and New York ( which is really fun by the way! I recommend going to the Toys R Us in Times Square!!) And I know Lizzie goes so many different places with her family!!! So you all need to post some for me!! Lol!! ESPECIALLY ANNIE IN COLORADO!! I am sooo jealous of you right now!!! She KNOWS she is in my favorite place on the whole entire planet!!! Gosh! And actually, this blog is going to be about a little piece of my heart that I wrote the summer after we came back from working out West. Man, I fell so in love with that place that I've been homesick for it ever since! Ask the girls! It's the only place I ever talk about (even tho where we worked stunk, we still had a blast with the Gores!! :) ). I moved so much when I was younger that every place looked the same to me; this was the only place that was different. It was it's own little world. So Beautiful. Anyway~ This is what the little piece said (and remember, I tend to get a little poetic sometimes, lol):
"...Well, I got an email from Mary, my forman's wife from my job out in Colorado this past summer. As I was emailing her back, telling her how much I missed her, Yancy, and the kids..., I began to realize how much I missed the West as well. The mountains in their ageless majesty; the sunrises, never the same as the last; the grass, greener than any shade Crayola can come up with; the rivers, restless and wild, making their place in this world; the cattle, making the West what it truely is; the cowboys in their silent grace and chivalry; and the sky, with its consuming purpose, going on forever, demanding attention, yet tiring of it all. I love the change of weather, it can come on sudden and ruthless, yet leave quietly, and as suddenly as it came, drenching the land and quenching its thirst. That land is in me. I yearn for it with every breath I take. As I wrote to Mary telling her how much I missed all of this, I felt overcome with a longing from deep within my heart. It was this homesickness I just couldn't explain. A homesickness from my own home. But, I guess that's not true is it? This place (Indiana), desolate, bleak, flat, cold, this is just where I live for the moment. Home is where your heart lies, and I believe I left it lying out West somewhere, waiting for my return. *sigh* But God does have everything set out in His plans, in His will. Everything happens for a reason. So I will do here all that He asks of me. But, God, will you ever let me return to where my heart desires? That or ebb this heartsickening homesickness for this place so far beyond my reach? Like Heaven on Earth, that West you've made for me...Love, Your Daughter"
Boy, I sure can go on, huh? Haha! But, maybe this will help all those ppl who ask me why I love it there so much, but can't really understand it because I was only there for work for the summer. Maybe it'll just confuse you. But to the 3 of us who were there, and for those who have been there and FELT the magic, they will understand. And they will smile at my "silliness" and my "sentiments". But, they will understand. And that, my friends, is all that matters. ~ In The Big Guy, me

Phillipians 4:13

Wow it's been a while!! Happy B-day Grandma!! I didn't forget I promise!! And Jenny, Josh, and Amber!! :) Lol!! I promise I didn't forget!!
Can you believe I've only been gone for almost 5 months?! Just a year and 8 months to go! Not that I'm counting down or anything!! Lol! I like it here!But it's definatley different from the states!! I'm hoping to go to Fort Worth, TX, from here! Vmfa-112, the Cowboys! If I don't get that then maybe somewhere in Miramar! No worries!!
So what to say really?! Life here is crazy!! Work, work, work!! Lol!!! But I get today off! And I don't hafta be to work until Tuesday!!! Yea!! So I hope it's a nice weekend!! Hopefully my crazy b/f will go to this place called Miyajima Island, about 40 min. from here!! There are little deer, wild monkeys, and old historical stuff to take pictures of!! And since I have a giant amount of time off, maybe I'll figure out how to put pix on here!! I think I can do it w/o having a digital camera... I'll just mess around with the scanner for a bit. :) Then I'll go back and put a picture with each of my entries!:) Yea!!
I miss you all!! I talk about everybody all the time and show off all of your pictures! (By the way, Annie and Lynnie, the guys here think you guys are GORGEOUS!!!) :) Heehee!! Send me some more!! Well, this is REALLY long so... I'll let you go with this... Keep close to your heart the story of Jesus walking on water (Matthew 14:22-33) This story can apply to every aspect of your life. We all are like Peter, quick to question and act, but a little shaky on the trust part. But, no matter how much we doubt ourselves, or even the Lord, He is standing a heartbeat away, ready to snatch us from the waves life sends to crush us, if we only ask Him. Trust fully in Him and know that He has great things planned for your life. Don't run your own life and still expect Him to give you all the good stuff. Give your life completely up to Him, and let Him run it how He wants. :) Gotta go. Muah!!* Me

Happy Best Friends Day, Annie

Annie,
I want you to know that I will never forget all the great things we have done over the years. I know I am bad at getting back to answering emails and I am very sorry for that. But you know how I am and I know that no matter what you'll stick thru it all with me. No matter what, I know that we are stuck with each other. We have never abandoned each other yet, and we're not about to start now. So, I want to let you know that I miss you, and I'm sending out my hugs, kisses, and cookies all the way from Japan just for you on our special day. Thanks for always being there for me. Thru thick and thin. Tears of sadness and tears of joy. (And tears of pain from all those bareback accidents! Wowch!)From Marion to Colorado and back! From the bottom of my heart, thank you, for always being my friend, and for being closer than a sister. I love you girl. In Him, Jessie

HEY JESS! Guess what today is?! Do you remember? One solemn day back when we were kids, this day was deemed....National BEst FRIENDS day! It still works overseas too! :)
What have you been doing? Getting to ride much? I hope you are having fun and living life to the fullest in Japan. Make the most of the time you are there, gain lots of experiences. Make a difference in people's lives, like you have here and everywhere you go! I have been blessed by you and your friendship in my life, and I thank God for you every day. We have shared SO many memories, good and bad, and you are so much a part of my life, like a sister to me, some one I could not forget even if i TRIED! You are stuck with me and I am stuck with you forever! Let that be a soothing thought not a sentence, ha ha. HERE are some memories I came up with thinking about and reflecting upon our friendship over the years...
Remember the rumage sales we used to go to all the time?!
The bike rides and adventures deep into the woods, exploring? The "indian graves" out in the apple orchard?!
The HI signs on road trips!
Look, horses! WHere? Oh, those are just tires or logs, ha ha!
Making HORSE SALAD from plants and weeds in the yard
BIG MAMA!!! ah!
Climbing the trees, especially our tree house
Riding in PARADES!
Cleaning up horse poop all over town so we don't get in trouble.....
TPing friends and neighbor's houses late at night....
ARNIE! How can I forget?!
Skipping school on the last day and GETTING CAUGHT by mom!
Strawberry shortcake at 7:00 in the morning when you should be in class....not a good idea
Going to KING's ISLAND
Meeting Officer Cook and our good friend PAT DAY!
PAONIA CO --- the LOOONNNGG train ride, RAISE THE BAR, Whistling Acres, your good time makers.... JESSE JAMES and Annie Oakly! The drive in movie....the Chinese restaurant in Delta, TRAVIS!!! Mirror mirror on the walll.......2 hour trip tp WALLIE WORLD! Buck Branaman! Camping with mare and yancy! the kiddies! Crusty Butt!! That there blade of grass reminds me of a story... Sure is nice out here, it is! Neighbor PATT!, What do GAY horses EAT>!?! The ROLLER ROPER! The bullwhip......The MAN FROM SNOWY RIVER! I......quit! I quit, I quit I quit I quit! and HAVE A NICE SUMMER! I WILL! (those dang posters FELL!)
TJ's straight line! ~~~~~ I'll get right on that! Capture the Flag (or those little brats)
The Water fight and MATTY!
High school prom --- what a night
Our road trip to MI! our friend Aaron who came to see us...driving home in a blizzard!!!
THE DUMB PAGE!!!!

These are just a few I came up with, I'm sure you will think of more! We have had lots of good times, never forget them. Never forget who you are.
I love you!!!!! HAPPY BEST FRIENDS DAY! Lets keep adding memories to the list ok?!
Sister in Christ, ANNE

"We are no strangers to ourselves, we only try to be." Dean Koontz

hey there all~ I'm having a great time here in Iwakuni!! I'm on duty right now for my squadron! :) Fun fun fun!! But definatly not as fun as gray belt training! It's fun but boy! it's really kickin my butt!! Lol! I miss you all very much! Sorry if the last so many entries where sad and lonely sounding! Life is definatly a challenge sometimes!! But it's loads of fun too! I'm working on my leave stuff for October, goin to Cooper's wedding in Hawaii! :) After the squadron gets back from Australia in the fall! Yea!! :) I'm so excited!! Ima take lots of pix of the wedding! Melissa (Cooper) and her fiance, Donovan, are sooo adorable! :) Wait till you all see the pix! I'll post 'em on here if I ever figure out how to do that! Lol! :)
Anyway, on to the whole reason for this blog! Unfortunately, it may be a little sadder than the stuff up top here. Or at least more confusing! Man, I wish you would all get a blog so you can give me your input!! Or at least email me and I'll put your comments on here via copy/paste from my email ok? :) Maybe it'll help somebody else. Who knows right?
Do you ever find it hard to talk to the ppl you feel really close to? Like the truth hurts to much to tell them? So, then what do you tell them? Obviously you can't lie to them. That's not even an option. It's not that you don't trust them with your secrets, it just hurts you more to repeat whatever it is that bugs you. Wow, that made NOOO sense! Lol! Only to me! :) Oh well. I'm sleepy. ;)
And another thing I forget: If you have made a promise to yourself, but then decide later that it's ok to change that promise, are you cheating yourself? Is it the same thing as breaking a promise to some other person? Even if you just decide it's ok and that you wanna change your mind? Hmm.. that's definatly something to ponder. What do you think? This is all based on your opinion, by the way, and may or may not have any effect on my decisions ;) Lol.... I make way less sense when I'm tired! And I worry about stuff way to much! Do you know that I already have gray hair ( which I like to refer to as silver) and any time soon I'm gonna have an ulcer! Just give it time!!
Well all, I love you and I miss you but I'm gonna go and be bored some more. :)
Love forever from a far away place,
In Him ~ Jessie
"Life is not about how fast you run or even with what degree of grace. It's about perseverence, about staying on your feet and slogging forward no matter what... even little dreams can't come true unless you persevere." - Dean Koontz

What are you afraid of?

Alright, here goes....Do you ever feel like sometimes you need to do something, yet, you're unsure of what it is exactly that you need to do? Like you have to fix something but are unsure of how to fix it? It's crazy because that's exactly how I've felt for the past week. I have not yet been clued in as to why that is... so we'll just explore this a little further, shall we? Maybe somebody else can tell me what it is that I am missing. ~ Let's start with the Corps. You all know that since I've joined I have been all about being a "Lifer" (wanted to retire from the Corps in 30 years). Well, recently I have started to wonder if maybe that's not what I want. There are a lot of reasons for this train of thought, mostly due to the fact that I want to ride. Riding has been a giant part of my life since I was 9 years old, and being in the Corps doesn't give me the time (or the opportunity over here in Japan) to ride often, if at all. I wanna go out West (Colorado baby!!) and go to College and ride. And play softball of course. But riding is the main thing. Horses are just something I am not willing to give up. They have been a dream of mine since I was four. And you shouldn't ignore or forget your dreams; they are gifts or talents that God has given you. Remember that.~ What else has been bothering me?.... Hmmmm... well, what else usually bothers females? Boys. Why are they so stubborn? Why do they always have to be... dumb dumb dummy heads?! ( Lol for those of you who have seen Shark Tale). :) Really tho?! ~Let's see, what else has been bothering me....? Oh ya.... Here is a question I want all of you to think about...What are you afraid of in life? Because the first step to conquering it, is acknowledging it. That was really hard for me to do. It was really hard for me to sit down and be honest with myself and say what I fear the most. Because once you say it out loud, it makes it real and it's not something you can really deny anymore. For the most part, I've found out, you can't really rate fear. You can on some things yea - like for example I'm not as afraid of spiders as I am at the thought of losing a family member. But for the most part fear is fear. And it hinders you from living a normal life because you will always have one thing in the way from keeping you from enjoying life to the fullest, from enjoying life the way that it was ment to be lived. So, maybe to help others see what I mean, I am going to tell you all a little bit of the things that scare me the most. Mind you, not everything I'm afraid of will be said on here, somethings are too personal to let the world know. But a few things won't hurt. For starters, you all know that I'm freaked out by the 8 legged creepy spider thingys. :( Yuk. I have a phobia of bumps..... and believe it or not I'm afraid of dark places. Not of the dark, but of rooms with no windows, it doesn't matter how large or small the space. Mom, remember the tanning rooms at Bubbles? *shiver* Those are a few little things. Other things (big things) are like I'm afraid of trusting ppl. That's a big one. Once you lose trust in ppl it is so hard to get it back. Mostly that rule goes for guys (no offence to the ones I know but I'm being honest here, remember?). I've had too much bad luck in that department. I'm a magnet for unavaliable men, and I'm tired of it. So I'd just as soon stay away from them all together so that way I won't keep getting hurt. But then, where would that get me other than miserable and lonely? I'm afraid of getting hurt. I'll admit it.I'm even more afraid, I think, of things going right for once. I'm not quite sure I'd know how to take that. Do good things last? Sure they do. You just have to be willing to open up and trust that other person, and you have to be willing to be hurt again. Because if you don't open up that part of you, you can never hope for something good to happen. It's just that simple. Just be careful to whom you trust your heart to. But remember to live life to the fullest.
Well I hafta go now, my time's run out! Muah to you guys!
In Him.... me

Softball

Hey there to all my lovely fans! Lol, j/k!! :) Things on my end are great!! For starters it is a BEAUTIFUL Friday and we got off work at noon! Our Co (commanding officer) Let us out early after the promotion ceremony because we put out over 538 flight hours for the month of March which is a pretty rare thing for a squadron to do! Ooh rah VMFA-212!! Go Lancers!!! I'm soo excited! Oh ya, and I got promoted today too! My roommate is now a Corporal and I'm a Lance Corporal! Now It's time for me to work on gettin my Corporal! oh ya..... anyway.... I don't have lots of time right now but maybe I'll get on a ittle later.... I've gotta little something to fill y'all in on... In Him...Jess

If you give a Moose a Muffin...

...He will want a glass of milk. :) Isn't that the truth tho? No one is ever happy with what they have. They always want a little bit more. Yet, they never TRUST that God will provide them with all that they need. Myself included sometimes. Remember, it can be hard to trust in that which you cannot see. My word for the year has been trust. And boy that sure is a difficult word!! Honestly! How can a word be difficult? I'm not quite sure but it is! Lol! Well, this will be very short because I have 0600 early show tomorrow!! :) Oh, ya! Before I forget to mention it, a jet caught on fire today!! It was crazy!!! That was a very big mess to clean up! Wow! Well, I love you all, and you are ALL in my prayers, everyone of you who stops to read this. :) God Bless you all.
In Christ... me
ps, just for gunny, "and this one time, at band camp..." ;)